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Oh, Shadow how you have followed me.  As seasons change and days go by, The limbs of this tree have twisted.  The leaves have died, been born again frozen, dried and brought to life each day with the sweet morning dew.  Through all of this Shadow you been faithful Like a follow of the Lord.  We have been parted over these years,  As I looked over my shoulder there you were.  Always with an enigmatic smile.  This season after I have returned  Only to find my Shadow reborn.  Now my Shadow is leading me and I am now your shadow.  Light has dawned over us this past season Illuminating our lives, our world, our hearts, I have found you, you have found me Now we can walk hand in hand, equals Not followers anymore, leaders.  Leaders of this new season. 

Sunshine why must you always evade me? I look for you all day within the clouds I have asked you to please illuminate my heart Show the world what I have to offer Show the world a piece of me. I go days without seeing you Nights caress my skin The moon sings me to sleep The stars attempt to feel the emptiness Futile. Fruitless. Barren. I am so tired of waiting for you I have worked so hard But have lost my way Just trying to find you. Everyone keeps saying time heals all But since birth I have this wound Flesh is in tact, bone is unbroken Eyes can still admire, hands can still feel Yet my heart, my heart is failing. Please save this heart, save this soul. I am here waiting for you Sunshine, Waiting patiently for your guiding light Please shine on me. Don't let me fade into blackness...

Crash into me, please crash into me Let me feel something real Crash into me, please crash into me Show me loves destruction Crash into me, please crash into me Teach me how to rebuild a broken heart Crash into me, please crash into me End this pain and suffering Crash into me, please crash into me Revive this once happy existence Crash into me, please crash into me You saved my life, saved my heart Crash into me, please crash into me I learned to truly love by crashing into you...

Walking down the city streets I am revisited by ghosts crashing into me Tears fall, teeth clench, heart burns. Ancient scars rise from skin, For all the world to see. Frantically closing these wounds The seams have come undone, the chest has been unlocked. The key is forever lost, lost at sea. Humanity was lost during those years, An animal was awakened, unleashed on the world. It rose from the sea, relentless, evil. Somewhere lost in the crimson caverns I wandered, wandered helplessly. Watching the carnage the God let loose on the world, Hate spewed from the serpents mouth, Uncontrollable desires from its fangs. It tought the world to live in uncertainty, fear. She set the serpent free from its lair, She raised it, nurtured it, fed it. She caressed it, loved it, hated it, She couldnt control it, I ended it.

When the fireworks have lost their spark. When the gleaming in your eyes is lost Time will have flickered furiously, giving up We have come to an end. Tears forming like the morning dew Cheeks just leaves suspending the sorrow One by one drops hit the pavement, fallen angels. I am a fallen angel. You believed in me, gave me faith. I never wanted your gifts, your love, your evil Faith is a fools wine, I drank too much. I stumbled, scrampled and escaped. Heaven or hell, never knew where I was Didn't know where to run, the north star blackened I am back, on this island known as life Isolated, surrounded by solace, Images of smiling people, shadows. A man surrounded in dark, me. True life or false death...

by Jimmy Portillo And when you come back from your date, I’ll ask you, “How did it go?” Before you could finish your sentence a passionate kiss will be pressed upon your lips, madly kissing you all the way to the bed. Slowly removing your clothes, I kiss you from top to bottom; never missing any crevices of your body, with each kiss love is strengthened. Then as I lift my head, I tell you I want to make intense love to you. Our hearts, bodies and minds are infused as one, but after the morning comes I am not there. You will wander endlessly with different men and as your bodies meet my face will reappear. The love we had, you will never find with anyone else. It’s the kind of love that when you are alone you will feel me on your shoulders, pressing my lips on to your neck, whispering softly in your ear “I miss you. I love you so much. Please come back to me.” It’s the kind of love that when you see any beautiful sight my face will materialize into your mind, the kind of love ...

Its been 4 years since we last said good bye Been 4 years and we have changed Yet, the foundation is still unaltered It stands for all to see. Words were spoken, time has passed Ashes of embers not yet burned, An album of blank pictures Two heart ready to exist. Hands touch, eyes meet. Fear is looming, persistent. Breath needs catching Reckless minds running wild. Old scars healing, disappearing Wounds still open Flesh is decomposing An enslaved heart locked away. Impaired desires, crooked smiles Flashes of a future of uncertainty Shadows enveloping the world As we sit and wait Wait for what could be…